“What do you think is keeping you from emotionally processing this?”
….I sit stone-faced while my mind races for an answer that sounds smart, or at the very least witty.
I stammer my way through an explanation that even I couldn’t believe.
My therapist watches me and I’m wondering what she is thinking.
Does she think I need therapy? Am I here too often? Do I talk too much? Do I not say enough???
She speaks and the thoughts stop and fall to the floor. She tells me about “gifting” myself the chance to heal and being kind enough to allow myself the time.
I leave with the homework of finding what it is that is blocking my opportunity for mitigating some of the pain. I have yet to figure that out. I probably won’t by the time next week rolls around either.
Not every session seems productive but later on I feel that I have things in my mind a little more organized and issues in my life feel a little less chaotic than before.
And so as my husband would say, “I call that a win.”